After 300 yards turn left

We all have a built-in GPS in our heads: no matter what turn we take it still returns us to the path to our Destiny.

The Blue Butterfly

On Synchronicity:

Today once again was thinking about the "little worm" (the semi-serious definition of "true self" that I came up with during one of my debates on Rupoint) and how it's transformation into first a chrysalis then a butterfly resembles the stages of human transformation or "hero's journey". For the past few days I have been growing certain that I've entered a "chrysalis stage" – introverted, thoughtful, waiting for things to take their course. Then I started to think about a butterfly – the image didn't mean much to me, no reference. I drawn a few pictures of a butterfly, thinking I should look for butterfly images and see if they prompt something. I moved onto other things and remembered later that I wanted to google Martha Beck. From her site I got a link to her new book, contemplated purchasing it, then downloaded .pdf worksheets for the book I found on Audible. It wasn't until at least an hour later, when I was busy with something else that a striking similarity between the butterfly No 2 I've drawn and the image on the cover of Martha's book hit home. To add insult to the injury, she uses the image of a butterfly in her personal logo: http://www.marthabeck.com/img/nav_logo.gif.

Synchronicity at work, no more no less.

I really don't want to venture into this territory after what had happened in November 2002. It was an extremely painful experience both for me and for Malysh and I have no intention of going through it again. Yet I can't quite accept it as just a "bipolar manic episode", as long as there is a slightest possibility of a different explanation. I accidentally pushed a wrong button in my brain and something misfired. But what if I can actually learn how to push the "right" buttons?

Books

C.G. Jung
Joseph Campbell
Victor Frankl
Erich Fromm
Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi
Martha Beck
Barbara Sher

Metawords

Archetypes
Emotions
Being
Flow
Geschtalt
Embodied consciousness
Semiotics
Dao
Intuition
Transformation
Synchronicity
Hero's Journey
Self

Women don't create companies...

"Women don't create companies, they give birth to them," said Rachel Elnaugh in her blog that I've been reading eagerly over the past few days: http://racheleelnaugh.blogspot.com

Innocense Lost

There are things in my life that seem to drag on and on and on and in a wane hope that one day "I'll get round to it": losing my virginity (well, I did get round to it at a ripe age of 22), having children, mending my socks, starting a blog. Not that they aren't appealing that much, it's just always something else that gets in the way until one day you say: "That's it! Now or never!"

I know another thing - that "now or never" moment never happens without certain pressuress accumulating to a critical point where holding them becomes painful and pointless. And anyway, as Daniel Goldman mentioned in "Emotional Intelligence", writing one's thoughts is good for mental health, and that's exactly the sort of health that always seem to be scarce in my otherwise pretty sound life.

At the end of the day, of all possible ways to procrastinate best to choose the one that leads to at least a skinny promise of immortality! (You wish.)